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I just don't know what is happening anymore .. I just don't know who I am. I broke up with him.. which didn't make me sad. I mean losing him wasn't a big deal for me. I just feel pitty for him cause he keep asking me to give him another chance ! I don't want to .. OMG ! I think I have some feelings for Mahan ! But he is his friend. Of course he is Sara's friend more than Ali's. whatever .. I don't think this ever happens. I just shipped him with Mozhan ! I was hopeful nothing happens :) that's totally embaracing! Yesterday we went to cafe ! I told Mozhan to pay attention to him. He came later. The whole time I was looking at the door. Then he came , and sat beside me. We chat ! And I understood he was so sweeter than what I thought ! OMG ! I can't stop thinking of him .. WHAT IS HAPPEING ! I'm losing my mind i guess. I feel sorry for myself. Does he think about me ?! Does he like me ?! Would he ask me on a date if it was nothing between me and ali ?! Why did I asked him about how is he doing last week ?! Does he think I'm still in love or sth. Btw .. I can't have a real relationship because of my limitations .. I can't handle it. It's just seems a lot for me .. oh god,oh god ! Today mozhan told me he's not goa date him and I was happy af ! Last night I was dying when I saw he had followed him on instagram. What's wrong with me ?! Deep down. I know I did this to Ali bc of him ! I'm a complete mess ... I should answer for all of those ?! Then I'm bored ! I'm bored when I don't have a boyfriend and there is no one to go out with ! Are they signes of being a b.i.t.c.h ?!