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The air around me feels like a cage :) ! It really does ... my best years are wasting. alone. with no friends. Sometimes I think I want to marry him as soon as possible just to release myself. I know that's a bad idea. I know what comes after these kind of choices , more problems ! But I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm alone. I'm really really alone. I need someone. A girl. A friend. A close one ! But I can't because of my conditions and that's killing me from inside. I want to cry. I want to die. If I knew what's on the otherside , If I knew dying is the end , I would definetly do that ! What's the purpose of my life ?! Who really needs me ?! I used to think I'm a popular girl at school. Maybe I was. I'm not. I'm the girl who guys think I'm pretty so they just want to flirt with me and girls don't want to be friends with her because guys who they have crush on them talk to her. So ! The girl is alone :) University is much worst of highschool. Now that I'm thinking more , I lost most of my friends because of guys ! They prefer having a boyfriend .. fuy ! :) when my miserable life is going to end ?!

P.s: Maybe having a job make life much more easier. Help me with that ! plz ! I'm begging u :)