I just don't know what is happening anymore .. I just don't know who I am. I broke up with him.. which didn't make me sad. I mean losing him wasn't a big deal for me. I just feel pitty for him cause he keep asking me to give him another chance ! I don't want to .. OMG ! I think I have some feelings ...

I don't know what's right anymore .. wish I had someplace to run .. 

I don't know what I'm doing anymore. It's his birthday .. why i can't forget him ?! :) I feel like I have no feelings for a anymore ! Sara asked me if i'm intrested in being with Mahan :)) His cute .. and kind .. but his friend with a :)) Actually I like it .. but .. idk :)

Today I bought a French self-studying book. I wa a start it now. mom says I have to go to classes too. anyway I think it's good to know sth about that before going to the class or taking the course at university. I have to work on my writing and grammar too. GOD ! I need to improve ! :(

A guy replyed to my ads at penfriends club. He's turkish ! come on ! He's not a native speaker , how can I be sure that he write correctly ! But it's better than nothing .. I havn't studies for few days. All i did was watching GOT ! i just started it and found out what i was missing ! I have watched...

The air around me feels like a cage :) ! It really does ... my best years are wasting. alone. with no friends. Sometimes I think I want to marry him as soon as possible just to release myself. I know that's a bad idea. I know what comes after these kind of choices , more problems ! But I just don't ...

Post number 100 ! amazing .. I hadn't continue writing a web for this long before started this. Started this to write about him and know .. ! I afraid to go back and read what I wrote. I don't want to remeber that I was a fool. I still think that I am. I'm always worried about saying sth and sounds ...

I think I'm getting better. Maybe for none_stop watching got ! 3 more episodes left. I may finish it tonight. I was thinking that I lost 4 kgs in a month. can I do it till the next month too ?! If I can .. then I'll be 53 .. and 2 more kgs till the end of summer .. sounds really good ! I was at this...

I broke up with him. Last night. I don't know why really .. that's fu y ! I guess I'm losing my mind ! I cant't tolerate his atitudes anymore .. He drives me crazy all the time. He wants to argue about all the little worthless things in our relationship and srsly ! I can't handle them ! last night h...

I lost weight ! thanks god ! about 7 kgs .. Now I'm 54 ! I go a lose 4 more. I think I'll be good then. I have to chose my courses for next term which means it's going to start pretty soon .. Actually I did nothing this summer but losing weight and watching Got ! what a shame .. Sometimes I think ma...

He texted me :))) .. I think it was about 4 or 5 days ago .. he said I wasn't sure when was your birthday .. so I just wanted to say congratulation sooner .. then we talked ! actually I made the conversation longer by asking for music .. he sent me 90 ! :)) and the other night he sent message again ...

It has all started again. university I mean. I'm still a bit confused about the new lifestyle (again). I have to go there from 9 A.M till 1 P.M. I haven't gone to the gym since last week cause I can't ! so I have to go to another gym which has time for ladies in the afte oon and I'm go a start it ne...