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Post number 100 ! amazing .. I hadn't continue writing a web for this long before started this. Started this to write about him and know .. ! I afraid to go back and read what I wrote. I don't want to remeber that I was a fool. I still think that I am. I'm always worried about saying sth and sounds foolish. I'm always worried about peoples judgments .. I know .. I'll never can enjoy my life this way .. but wait ?! enjoy from what ?! I was wondering why I want to lose weight this much ?! Doe's anyone care ?! idk .. I just want to have nothing to let people even think about me .. fuy ! I guess I'm losing my mind .. Btw .. I lost about 4kgs .. Now I'm 57 .. I though being 55 is ok for me but know I'm afraid not ! I have to lose 7kgs more to reach what I want .. I'm doing well by being on diet and going to the gym but there still some little mistakes which I shouldn't make .. Can I dp it till the end of summer ?! I hope so ..